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Got my COVID-19 vaccine this week. I had it done on Thursday. I would like to report that I was kind of tired for a few days after. But that could have been because I was working 11hr shifts half the week. So, who knows? I also experienced a VERY sore arm the day after my injection. Other than that, I have not had any side effects yet. Fingers crossed that if I do, my side effect is development of powers, like Magneto or Spiderman or Wolverine.

Other than that…I have been doing so good with my grief and coping. And then I rolled downhill on Sunday.

And then I lost it this morning (Monday). Didn't want to get out of my towel after I showered. Decided to write a poem and cry for a while. I have been having all of these awful thoughts...

How do people (including me) cope with knowing that their baby was born sleeping, and then...goes straight to being placed in a casket and buried…or engulfed in flames. There is a lot wrong with that picture...

It is, unfortunately, reality. And it happens in this world so much more than it should. Even thinking of it happening once is too much. Imagining my 2lb 6oz baby with dark wavy hair, a perfect button nose, tiny little 2 inch feet…just never being seen again.

And all we have left are a few pictures and the hope that people around will always remember him...

The good news is…Heaven. And I think that’s enough said this week.